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five things i’m dreaming about – christmas is coming

I am not generally someone who lusts after frivilous things. I get guilty when I buy books or music and I don’t buy them often. If I have to buy new clothes I always feel like I am spending money on something that isn’t as important as food or bills. I know I have issues with money, so when it comes to wanting things that aren’t 100% necessary, I find I even limit my dreams.

I don’t know if it’s because of the mood I’ve been in with the pain/strike/sick leave, or what. Lately those frivolous things have been catching my eye and I have a little tiny Dreamer Wishlist going in my head.

My friend Kristi often writes a post about books she’s pining for, this is the same sort of thing only about completely indulgent things.

First and foremost is this:

Jem & the Holograms Box Set

This one is a total indulgence because I already OWN the first 2.5 seasons. Many moons ago, seasons 1 & 2 were released and then HALF of the third season was released. I have been waiting YEARS for that second half to come out, but I think the rights to the show were in question and that never happened. Now, with the creation of The Hub cable station, this cartoon is back on the air once more to delight an entirely new generation. The ENTIRE series has been released in one boxed set and it’s unbelievably expensive. :( This box set, however, is supposed to have new and exciting (truly outrageous?) special features and interviews. So, of course I want the entire thing. (I would then have 2.5 seasons of Jem on DVD to give away. ;) )

BookBook for iPhone

I saw this little gem on That Cover Girl’s book blog last month. She got it as a gift. I IMMEDIATELY fell in love with it. I have a fun case for my iPhone, but this one? This one looks like an old, worn, leather BOOK and it can hold your key ID/cards at the same time. So much love! Sadly, it’s $60 US plus shipping. It IS cheaper than the Jem box set though. heh

Gelaskins – Bookshelf Macbook skin

When we were at Best Buy picking up my lovely little 13′ Macbook Pro this summer, there were some cool skin/covers on a rack. I didn’t really like what was there, but Shawn thankfully wrote down the name of the product so when I said days later “I wonder what those skins were called” we could look them up online. It’s like he knows me. When I browsed the site I was captivated by this particular skin. It’s a BOOKSHELF! it’s very me. Even though it’s cluttered. One thing I miss about Molly the Laptop is my Emily the Strange sticker that I had on the cover. It made me look pretty badass when I was taking minutes at the council meetings. Heh. This isn’t badass, but it’s really cool. I’ve dropped in price, too. This one is only $29.99 US plus shipping. ;)

Threadless – Runnin’ Rhino

Not all of my dreams are about books! I happened to be on twitter using Hootsuite, who for a while had a bunch of promoted (ad) tweets, and they linked to Threadless (a t-shirt shop?). The ad had something to do with Muppets and t-shirt designs, but as I was browsing I came across this one design that made me laugh. The poor little rhino! I think maybe he reminds me of Finnegan. Either way, I think this is a delightful, yet sad, design. I want a t-shirt with this on it. (Threadless has some cool designs and some really, really weird ones.) Price tag is dropping! $20 US plus shipping. ;)

Clean Eating Magazine Subscription!

Ok, so this one isn’t as frivolous since I have been enjoying the issues of Clean Eating I bought myself. I have made many recipes from them all so far. I will actually be asking for this one as a legit Christmas gift idea (of my inlaw’s I think – don’t worry parents! I’ll think of something for you! ;) ) It’s a gift I would continue using long after Christmas. It would save me having to troll the big box bookstores for the new issues – AND I’d get it before it got to the store (the friend I have who turned me on to this also lives in Canada and gets her copy early). This of course would mean I have to get a better mailbox. The one I have is tiny, with stupid holes in it (decoration, I guess) and EVERYTHING gets soaked in the rain or during winter. If I am getting a magazine in the mail, I want a mailbox that stays DRY.

I should add: MAILBOX = $$

Maybe I could ask Santa for a mailbox, too?

All of these together is a whole whack of money, which makes me feel super guilty and irresponsible at once. If we had the kind of disposable income that could allow for ALL of these purchases at one time, I would STILL feel guilty. I’m always worrying about having to pay the responsible things (which reminds me, I have to pay the second half of my school taxes this week. MUST REMEMBER!) and never feel right about buying the irresponsible things (though I do feel that the food magazine has some responsible merit to it!).

Meanwhile, I will come back to this post on occasion, when I am feeling blah and down and gaze longingly at the above items and dream that they are a reality. Everyone is allowed to have dreams, right? These are just things that have caught my fancy and I like to look at.

my answers

[With the occasional edit, as I am not answering questions about just one other person :) ]

1. Your Middle Name: June

2. Age: 31

3. Single or Taken: Taken

4. Favorite Movie: today? Alice in Wonderland

5. Favorite Song or Album: Elsewhere, Sarah McLachlan

6. Favorite Band/Artist: Band: Sarah McLachlan, with Barenaked Ladies a close second.

7. Dirty or Clean: Squeaky clean, jelly bean!

8. Tattoos and/or Piercings: 2 Tattoos (soon to be three) and 3 piercings that I use.

9. Do we know each other outside of blogland? Some yes, some no. But I have made a heck of a lot of cool friends through blogging, I have to say.

10. What’s your philosophy on life? One day at a time.

11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty? Either way, I’m still gonna have to pee every 15 minutes so really, there’s no difference.

12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest? Why would keeping it from you be better for you? I don’t think I would. Although it really would depend on the situation I guess.

13. What is your favorite memory of us? I have memories of many of my readers, but if I were to tell them, I’d have to kill you all.

14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure? Avril Lavigne *shifty eyes*

15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you: Just ONE? Crap. I hate feet. I cannot look at them, they give me the willies. I will not even watch commercial that have feet in them. Ew.

16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the ‘world peace etc’ malarkey) – what are they: I like the super power idea, so I’m going to work that… I want to be able to fly/throw fire (like Firestar), I want magical powers like the Charmed Ones, I want to have a successful recording contract.

17. Can we get together and make a cake? I LOVE CAKE! So, hellz yeah! (Vanilla with butter icing, only though… I’ll also accept Pineapple Upside Down Cake. YUM!)

18. Which country is your spiritual home? WTF does that mean? My Spiritual Home?? Canada, I guess.

19. What is your big weakness? My short attention sp… oooh! look! A bird!

20. Do you think I’m a good person? I certainly know that *I* am a good person and really, that’s all that matters.

21. What was your best/favorite subject at school: Drama (favourite), English (best)

22. Describe your accent: Canadian, from Montreal.

23. If you could change anything about me, would you? You would all live closer to me, or I would live closer to you OR make someone invent teleportation. As much as I hate to socialize, I need friends around me.

24. What do you wear to sleep? Nada… unless we have a guest, then a tank top.

25. Trousers or skirts? Flannel Jammie pants

26. Cigarettes or alcohol? Neither. Although the occasional Jameson’s is ok.

27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together? KARAOKE till the cows come home!! And eat cake!

too busy, too hot, too tired to post

So I post this for you people who are not living in a too hot climate and aren’t too busy and too tired to answer. So what you do, see? Is copy and past the questions below into the comment section, see? And then answer them for me, kay?

It’s supposed to be 28 questions, but the 28th question is “will you post this so I can answer it for you?” and so I am ignoring that. Heh.

1. Your Middle Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Movie:
5. Favorite Song or Album:
6. Favorite Band/Artist: Band:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of LJ (EDIT: ooops, replace LJ with, um, this blog :) )?
10. What’s your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favorite memory of us?
14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the ‘world peace etc’ malarkey) – what are they:
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I’m a good person?
21. What was your best/favorite subject at school:
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?

So please humour me as I melt and wilt and die of heat stroke (although it IS going to be much cooler tonight, so huzzah!)

fears

Going around and around in my head.

- I am terrified that I am going bald.
- I am scared I will never lose this weight and will be fat forever.
- I’m scared my boobs are still too big.
- I am scared that I will gain weight and my boobs will just get big again.
- I am terrified that we’ll never get to move back home, that even if the place ever gets rebuilt the landlord will try to pull a fast one and rerent the apartment.
- I am scared we will live in my inlaws’ basement forever.
- I am scared of being a loser.
- I am scared I will never be cool.
- I am scared that people are only pretending to be my friend and will one day soon turn around and stab me in the back.
- I am scared (because of a dream I had last night), that Jill doesn’t want to be my friend anymore.
- I am scared that this stupid wound will never heal and I won’t ever be able to wear a real bra.
- I am scared Annie will die because of her allergies and it will be my fault.
- I am scared Shawn will leave me for a younger, thinner girl one day.
- I am terrified people will find out I really have no idea what I am doing at work and will fire me.
- I am scared that sometimes I care so much about what people think of me and worry that they don’t like me.

i’m only doing this ’cause i want to sleep with her…

HA HA!

No… not really.

Or…?

So I was tagged by the wonder that is Cindy-Lou do to one of these stupid meme things. I have no idea why they are even called meme. I think they’re dumb. BUT, since she’s so fantastic and I aspire to be just like her one day… I will do it.

I think I’m supposed to list a bunch of random facts about me, I’m not entirely sure. *rereads cindy’s post* Oh, 10-12 of them. Hmmmm.

  • I hate hearing people chew.
  • I love the smell of gasolene and will make sure the car window is open when Shawn fills up the tank so that I can sniffle the yummy, yummy smell of gas.
  • I love the smell of coffee the morning, but I hate the taste so I will not drink it unless I am really stressed (i.e. at my old job during Rush).
  • I was diagnosed as bi-polar in my early 20′s and never, ever thought I would get better until one day about 3 years ago I just woke up and was fine. I now live each day with the fear that it’ll come back. I don’t want it to. This is the first time in my life I have been on NO medication.
  • I was suicidal in the fourth grade. See why I am scared it’ll come back? It’s been a part of me for so long!
  • I have had my tonsils and appendix removed (age 14 and age 26 respectively)

Gee this is hard. I’m not that interesting am I?

  • I have epic dreams that will continue throughout the night, even if I wake up a number of times to go to the bathroom. The dreams will pick up where they left off. Not always a good thing since I have a lot of vivid and scary nightmares.
  • I have a lot of recurring dreams, especially when I am stressed about something. I have gotten to the point that I can recognize that I am dreaming and alter parts of the dream. Not always, but I can at least be aware of what’s going on and sometimes wake myself up if need be.
  • I stop breathing when I sleep.
  • I will not sign a card with anything other than a purple pen – unless I absolutely HAVE to. And I mean dire situations here, people.

Is that enough?? *counts* Well.. it’s 10. I can’t think of anymore. I’ve been doing this for way to long already. So there.

And I’m not tagging anyone because I’m not as much of a bitch as some people. :P