Spam emails have been getting a little negative lately. I am used to getting the stupid ones trying to sell medications or body part enlargements (last I checked I didn’t have any boy parts, so I don’t think most of those emails would help me). But lately? These emails have been getting downright hurtful.

I am getting emails with subject lines calling me stupid and telling me I’m ugly! Today’s Spammer has gotten creative at adding your name (or start of your email address) to the subject line to make it slightly more personal and hoping that will entice you to open up the email and unleash a world of evilness onto your computer.

I of course do not open any of these emails and 90% of them get filtered to junkmail, but the subject lines are just hurtful! I am way too senstive for this kind of spam! What do you MEAN I look stupid? When? Where? WHY? Oh my god THEY ARE ALL WATCHING ME!
And you know, how the heck did they get naked photos of me? I have never had a naked photo of me taken in my life. HAVE THEY PUT SPY CAMERAS IN MY SHOWER???

I don’t want to look stupid or ugly! I just finally started feeling good about myself!

*humph*

My lack of updating hasn’t been due to the sadness of my grandfather’s passing, though I was very sad last week, the lack of updating has been due to the 95 PLUS degree weather over last weekend, without the a/c (which Sears has had since APRIL 28 – don’t even get me started) but mostly due to the storm we had on Tuesday which knocked out our power for three days. It would have been more had I not phoned Hydro on Thursday afternoon from my cell phone and demanded to know WHY everyone else on the street had power since the night before and yet our row of 6 hours was without electricity and only being told we’d have to wait until Friday at 11:15 PM before we’d get it back? Do you know how hard it is to live without power for three days in 90 degree weather? Do you?

We have lost everything in the freezer and most of the stuff in the fridge. That cost a LOT to replace, and a LOT is not something we have, what with house, car and insurance payments. Oh, and property taxes this month.

But we got our power back by 5PM last night and then when Shawn got home we went over to my parents’ place to help them set up the little hall for the reception we were having after the funeral on Friday.

Friday was my grandfather’s funeral and it was a wonderful turn out of people. I was very touched when I saw who came. Even the priest said wonderful things about my grandfather, and I know the two of them got along well, not religion-wise, but my grandfather loved sharing jokes with him. My sister and I got up at the end of mass and spoke about our  grandfather as well. I sang with my father and the woman who was asked to sing for the funeral. I always feel better in Church, and especially at funerals, if I can be in the choir. Since I have been so used to sitting in the choir section of the Church most of my life, sitting anywhere else makes me very uncomfortable.

Anyhow, it’s going to be 90-plus this weekend too, and Shawn will be going to Sears to demand our money back for the a/c unit we only bought last July which was picked up for repairs on April 28 and they still have not phoned us to let us know when we can have it back. We phone THEM every two days. The last I heard from them on Thursday was that it looked like the earliest they can deliver the unit back to us is JULY 4 and that was only tentative. Fuck that, yo. I want my money back. Do you have any idea how sick I get in the heat? Very. I am also extra difficult to live with.

I do believe that life is testing me to see exactly how long I can go without sleep, between the dream, my grandfather, the weather and the lack of electricity, I have slept maybe 20 hours since LAST TUESDAY NIGHT (that would be June 3rd, and not June 10).

I am tired and fed up.