*pew* *pew*

That’s the sound the lasers shooting out of my eyes are going to make after my appointment tomorrow at lunch time!

I am both terrified and excited about this LASIK appointment.

I am out of sorts tonight. Feeling fragile from the anxiety earlier in the month and the nerves about the procedure tomorrow. I am full of What Ifs?

What if something goes wrong and I am blinded for life?

What if my retinas fall off?

What if my eyes don’t heal and stay flappy? Ew.

But at the same time I am going to go to bed tonight and put my glasses on the nose of the little ceramic dog for the last time EVER. I will keep that little ceramic dog because my mother made him and my grandparents used him for their glasses. But I will never have to take glasses off before bed again. (Ok, so I’ll have to sleep in goggle-type things for a night or two once this is done, but that’s different!)

I am amazed at how many people I know have had this surgery. Not one person has said anything negative about it. I have been told by everyone that this was the best decision they have ever made in their entire lives.

At 11:30 my parents will pick me up and drive me to the LASIK MD office and at 11:45 I’ll be called in to, I don’t know fill out papers? Sign things? And then at some point in the 3 hour block I will have the laser eye surgery thing and will hopefully be able to see without my glasses.

It’s sort of a cool thing if you think about it. It’s not a flying car or robot maid or anything, but it’s pretty neat that you can have a 5 minute procedure to get rid of glasses for ever.

But I am scared. I might have to pop a Xanax to get to sleep tonight even though I have been doing much better in the last week with the panic attacks.

Who knows what tomorrow will bring. Perhaps I’ll be writing a blog post tomorrow evening with fancy new laser eyes.

I am really hoping I’ll gain the ability to vaporize people with just a glare after all this is said and done. That would be AWESOME.