It’s almost 10:30 at night on Monday. I am having trouble sleeping lately, a lot of anxiety. There’s a lot going on with people around me and in my life and as I tend to really feel other people’s grief and anxiety when I am close to them it doesn’t help when I have my own anxiety. Massive panic attacks over the weekend. Lots of fun.
In other news – I have been confirmed for Lasik eye surgery at the end of this month! There are only 2 weeks left until I get some ativan. Er.. I mean, until I no longer need my glasses!
Also..um.. I completely forgot what my also was!
Oh, yes! So after a month back at curves full time (well, two times a week, plus 3 time the last week in January) I have actually lost an inch on my thighs and a half inch almost everywhere else, except for a couple of 1/4 inches (arm and er.. something else?). I went down a whopping 0.5 pounds BUT 0.3% in body fat, which is pretty sweet. This is all with having NO activity or gym visits last week for an entire week and eating like crap while I was sick. I am happy with the results, I mean I am not happy with the weight number since it went up since May as I wasn’t able to DO anything when the pain got so bad, but I know me. As long as I am active I will drop in size and that’s really all I want. These pills are working and I hope my doctor keeps me on them when I go for my 3 month follow-up next week.
It’s not a lot. I know that… but I’d say losing an inch on my thighs in 4 weeks is something. I’m happy with it! I went today and will go Wednesday or Thursday this week (maybe both!). I have to get back on the Wii Fit, but I have been so tired after work since getting sick last week. To be honest, I’m terrified about what it’ll say to me with over a week since my last Body Test. heh
Is it sad that I feel like I need an excuse to give my Wii Fit for not using it so far this week? I feel like I should hit up my local CLSC and get a note so that it won’t judge me as harshly as it has been because it’ll be a few days since I have used it.
Dear Wii Fit,
Please excuse Cat from her daily workouts as she has one hell of a cold which has resulted in fever and now respiratory problems. She is not allowed to flail around on your balance board until further notice.
A Doctor-type Person
The stupid Wii Fit judges you! It’s horrible! All I want to do is play Rhythm Kung-Fu over and over and yet the Fit feels the need to mock me and my overweight, unbalancedness every time I turn it on! Hmmph.
But none of that is going to happen right now. Monday I left work at noon with a fever and feeling like gravity was just pushing down on me with all its might. This morning I woke up, fever-free but I still felt really weary and then it got difficult to breathe. It feels like my left lung isn’t taking in any air. It is a very uncomfortable feeling. For part of the day I had this weird seal-bark sounding cough, which seems to be less seal-barky now and more dry. But I can’t really talk much without starting to hack. If I still have this pressure on my chest in the morning I guess I will actually drag myself to the CLSC and wait in a waiting room for hours only to be told I have a cold and to go back to work and have some soup or something. I don’t think they’ll give me a note to quell the wrath of my Wii.
Actually, it seems that whenever Shawn and I go look at historical things we get sick. It happened in 2006 when we went to visit Upper Canada Village and we both ended up with The Plague of Yore. And now? We went to see old paintings at the museum on Sunday and I have some sort of respiratory/hacking thing. Since Shawn mentioned he was starting to feel the gravity push thing this morning I wouldn’t be surprised if we both ended up with whatever the heck this is.
In other news… at 4:50pm this afternoon the sky was just so pretty I stepped out the front door on to the porch to try and snap some shots.
If I hadn’t been in my pyjamas I would have wandered out into the street to get a better photo of the sky over the houses. But alas, I was in my jammies and was feeling like crap with messy hair, too! So I did what I could from my balcony.